in my mind

i was pretending all the time in front of her.
no, actually, i was pretending in front of everyone.
i'm not good at showing my friends my weakness.
i don't know why, but i juts don't like to show my weakness.
i didn't ask somebody advise.
i just kept everything in my mind.
so, no body knew how i felt at that time, but one.
only she knew how i felt.
maybe she didn't know how i felt.
i assume that she knew i liked her, but she didn't know how i felt whenever i saw her.
what she knew was i liked her.
but probably she also pretended that she had known nothing.
so, we were "friends".

there were so many things in my mind.
i almost lost my caonfident.
i told her how i felt long time ago, but i got nothing from her.
did she forget what i said?
did she forget what she told me?
does she pretend i'm her friend because she feels pity to me?
does she hate me in fact...?
does she know me...?
does she know who i am...?

i have never got the answers for these questions.
i was just thinking.
but there was no way i feel better.
what i could do is just hide my emotions and pretend i'm okay.
and i'm good friend of hers.

as a friend

scine she came back, we hung out a lot.
we had time till school started, so we went to watch movies, shopping, and taking a walk together.
it was very happy time for me.
i saw her almost everyday till our school started.
i don't remember why we hung out so often, but i remembered that the time i spent with her was like dream.
we had really good time.

then school started.
even though our school started, we saw very often.
because we went to same school and school was not big.
so, if i was studying at library or whereever, i met her.
and we hung out too!
sometimes just me and her.
sometimes, our friends were there.
either way, we were very good friend.
yes, just friend...

cool stuff

this is what i thought it's cool.
i knew the iphone, but i didn't know what really is.
i mean i had no infomation about the function of iphone.
i was surprised this aplication!
it's so cool!!
has anyone got iphone already??

i met her

when i met her, i had jet lag.it was so bad!it was freaking hard to stay awake.when i met her, probably she thought i was so sleepy lol

i felt little bit strange when i met her again.
because neither of us didn't know what to talk.
we talked a lot on msn, yet we hadn't seen each other more than 2 months.so, both of us were little bit shy.
yet, we could talk as time went by.we had dinner and went to watch movie.
i was watching her face all the time, so i don't remember what movie was that lol
it was very good time to see her.i was very glad to see her.
the fact that she was pleased by my gift from japan made me happy as well.
i bought so much stuff in japan.in fact, half of my suit case was gift for her lolthen the nigth was over.
we went home, but i was still excited to be the same town she was.

coming back to where she lives

time went so slow even though i did so many things and had so much fun with my friends and family.
but time went little by little.
then i came back to canada, she lived.

my friends got me the next day i came back to canada.
they prepared party for me and we had so much fun.
they made plan to go to banff without telling me.
it was very surprising for me, but we went to banff anyways.
i had so much fun with them because i missed them when i was in canada.
yet i was thinking about her all the time.
actually, i couldn't stop thinking about her even though i was talking with my friends.

i sent her e-mail as soon as i got where i used to live.
seems she was so busy because she was moving the next day i came back to canada.
i was thinking to help her moving, but i went to banff with my friends.
fortunatelly, her friends could help her, so she could move without my help.
however, i missed her badly...

right after i came back from banff, i sent her e-mail again.
then i got a chance see her again!!
i was so happy to see her!!

my birthday

i am back to original story this time~!
i don't know which one you like to read, but this is the main purpose i have blog.
so, i try to keep writing about my story~~
here is the new one!!

while i was staying in japan, my birthday came.
i was so busy to hang out with my friends because i hadn't seen them more than one year.
i hung out with them almost everyday.
but i still kept in touch with her.
sometimes, she cared my health because i told her that i didn't sleep enough.
i was really glad she cared about me even though it was a white lie.
when she said that she also told me that she would call me soon.
i didn't know why she said she would call me.
i completely forgot my birthday.

then my birthday came.
she called me in real.
i was so surprised that she called me because i called her every time and it was first time she called me.
i was so glad to hear her voice.
i was also glad that she remembered my birthday.
she also sent me e-mail.
it was very simple, yet it was good enough.
i was supposed to see my friends on my birthday, so i could not talk doe a long time.
i guess i talked with her like 20 minutes.
it was very happy time for me.
that birthday was the best birthday i've ever had.
that was my 20th birthday

new thing !!

as i mentioned before, i want to write something except my story.
so, i will do it today!!
my story doesn't sound happy yet, i guess.so, here is the article you can laugh at~~
i don't know what you think, but i thought it's funny!!
here it is~~enjoy ~
http://queenaudy.blogspot.com/2008/01/rehat-sekejap.html